october 7th, 2008, 6:20 am

last year, for the first couple weeks of october, i was homeless. then i got sick of the arrangement, and i moved in with a friend for six weeks. those six weeks were intense!

i'd wake up at 5am, take a shower, have breakfast at the western cafe at 6am, then i'd be in my office by 7am. i was very productive. that was when i designed this website as it is today. i was also working on painting, music (composition and transcription), my journals, and doing well with my coursework.

there's something beautiful about waking up at 5am when it's still dark outside and getting started with the ambitions of the day. i'm hoping i can recreate that atmosphere again this fall.

i wake up without warning and go flying around the house
me and my sauvignon, fierce, freaking out
take a forty-five minute shower and kiss the mirror
saying, "look at me, baby, we'll be fine"
all we gotta do is be brave and be kind
i put on an argyle sweater and put on a smile
i don't know how to do thisthe national, baby, we'll be fine

i'm feeling it this morning. my sleep schedule has been crazy weird. but i'm embracing it now. i woke up at 4am. i'm feeling the intensity that was characteristic of last fall. i'm going to try my best to recreate it.

today i have a list of ambitions. i'm going to finish a painting, update the live version of ttf, clean up my music collection, go grocery shopping, and pick up francis at the airport (he gets back from africa tonight).

i've also been thinking about the web-based life management software i want to create. i think i'm actually going to do it. it's a large undertaking. i'm going to have to learn a lot more about server security. i'm not sure if i have the time to fully execute my ideas, but i'm going to try to get some of it done. i'm excited!

i've been very reserved on this blog. i post seldomly. i'm thinking that i may post more often with updates on my progress. i hope you find the rss feed useful!

i've been listening to nada surf's latest album, lucky, a lot. i'm enjoying these lyrics this morning:

the only thing i'm scared of is the secret that you keep
i know where you are, i dunno where you are
don't make the other wonder, the others might sting
tell me what you're thinking,
do not let me twist
just look at the size of you—
i see you in my sheets, i see you in my sleep
i see you with something that's funny, i hear you, i almost weep

i see you from my steps, you're walking up my street
but just look at the size of you—

i see you in my sheets, i see you in my sleep
i see you from my steps, you're walking up my street
and just look at the size of you—

the sun shine on and on—
the sun shine on and on—nada surf, are you lightning?

i've been reading zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance by robert pirsig. i like the content and the story. at first, i was unimpressed by his writing style and construction. but i've gotten used to it and i'm appreciating it quite a bit.

after i finish this book, i'll be finishing notes from underground by dostoyevsky. then i'll be reading letters from a young poet by rilke and nine stories by salinger.

if you haven't noticed, i have two new project pages on this website. check out my paintings and sappho!