january 8th, 2012, 10:36 pm

i’m sick of chasing dopamine highs. a healthy serotonergic system is so much more important to me.

that is, i want love as closeness, not love as perpetual distance.

unlimited forever hugs, please

december 16th, 2011, 3:28 pm

“Text as a medium is particularly dull when it comes to expressing emotions,” Professor Sundar said…
The New York Times, Emoji, page B1, 7 Dec 2011

maybe he forgot about poetry and novels.

... “Emoticons open the door a little, but emoji opens it even further. They play the role that nonverbal communication, like hand gestures, does in conversation but on a cellphone.”
ibid.

and so might everyone else forget, in time.

oh well.

november 29th, 2011, 2:52 am

“You know when I was a little kid in Oregon I didn’t feel that I was an American at all, with all that suburban ideal and sex repression and general dreary newspaper gray censorship of all our real human values but and when I discovered Buddhism and all I suddenly felt that I had lived in a previous lifetime innumerable ages ago and now because of faults and sins in that lifetime I was being degraded to a more grievous domain of existence and my karma was to be born in America where nobody has any fun or believes in anything, especially freedom…”
kerouac, the dharma bums, ch. 5, p. 31

yes, japhy, all that suburban ideal and sex repression, indeed.

november 23rd, 2011, 6:41 pm

dopamine via limerence
serotonin via intimacy

i call this the conflict between names and faces, fantasy and reality, respectively.

this is the conflict of my life.

november 21st, 2011, 8:55 am

time has stretched out so much since this summer.

looking back at this autumn, each week feels like a month.